Unfortuantely I don't get on BB much these days (just no time!) so I feel bad just coming in to sook/rant rather than be there to help/chat to others but got to let this out somewhere. NO one need reply.

We are TTc no3#. DS was IUI, DD was IVF and we have lost a lot along the way ( a total of 8 bubs now including my current m/c)
I was so relaxed going into this journey this time around, thinking we had had our share of c#@p and maybe I would just get pg 1st or 2nd try and all would be dandy!
Hahaha.... says the universe as it throws more failure our way!
Our first FET (last remaining embie from the cycle which made DD) ended with chemical pg - I dealt with that ok
Stim IVF -BFN -pretty gutted but we got a frostie so I was thankful
next FET - BFP - OHHH YAY how relieved and thankful I was. This was going to be my smooth pg...surely? Nope, HCG;s started to drop pretty quickly and am now miscarrying at 5.5weeks. Have never actually m/c this early before so just not really prepared for it sll.
All those old feelings of sadness,anger,fear etc have come flooding back and I HATE it. I just want to be happy and hace something to look forward to.
Please don't get me wrong, I know FULL well how lucky I am to have 2 gorgeous children and I am eternally grateful but I just can't help that yearning for another.
I'm not sure I will ever be truly "content" without that last child in our lives
Anyway not sure really what I'm trying to say other than I'm peeved with the world and just want things to go as planned for once. Thats not to hard is it?
MY FS is ok with us to go straight into another stim cycle if hormones all "flat" when I have a BT tomorrow which I am keen to do just to get moving forward. HOwever, I also just don't want to have to do anymore jabbing, pilling etc etc -I'm over the whole deal already. I know we haven't done to many cycles this time around but I think its an accumulation of ALL the cycles we have done over the years.
Agggh - I guess I'll feel more positive in a few days.