Jo, no one will judge you in here. I don't judge any woman who has a termination (I don't see how anyone really can, as we can't stand in the shoes of another person and know what they have been through to come to any decision they make), rather I always just wished that it were me falling pg instead. I think all of us girls in here feel the same way. I really hope your laparoscopy give you answers to your fertility issues and if anything is found that it can be fixed and have you ready to fall pg.