First of all, thank you all so much for your responses It means so much to me that there are other women who know what I'm going through, and you care about me.

You haven't said why you think you wont be able to have a bub.
Honestly, I kind of stuck my head in the sand as soon as anything was said. From what I understand, the reason I may not be able is because I don't ovulate regularly. I used to get 4 or 5 periods a year, and then my OB put me on the Pill to regulate it. I reacted badly to that, and once I went off, I only got 1 or 2 periods a year. So I can't chart my cycle or anything, because I honestly don't know from one day to the next whther I'm gonna get my period.

The last two times I got it, I actually thought I had miscarried because I got two BFP's. I asked my OB about it, because blood tests showed I definitely hadn't been pregnant. He said that sometimes the hormone levels get so high that you can get a false positive on a HPT, but not a blood test. When I thought I had m/c'd, I was just a little bit happy, because I thought 'At least I know I can get pregnant'.

But to not even have ANY pregnancies in over 2 years of unprotected sex - I just think it's not gonna happen. I know in my head you're all right though, I need to get it checked out properly, even if I find out the worst, at least I can move on.

Thanks again for all your responses - coffee and cheescake for all