HEy Willow,
Be brave girl. You'll be fine. just like you i was panicking too. i was so fretful before anaesthetic but they gave me a tablet to help me chill out. Not drowsy;but not fretting.Out of all 3 laps this has been by far the best. I've had a day sleep 5 hours. Then a shower. I'm very bloated and so full of wind.I keep apologising to everyone for being so noisy-its embarrasing but everyone is laughing at my expense. Not much of an appetite;but really thirsty. Still taking panadeine, but i feel really high spirited. I really believe it'll be the same with you. Every single member of staff at the hospital were beautiful,so attentive and caring. just tell them how you are feeling. that you are scared. I told the nusre in the operating room i was really frightened and she let me hold her hand and she caressed my head till i fell asleep. Before i went in they had just performed a caesar on a lady and parked the baby right next to me until its daddy came out. She was so beautiful;it reinforced the other reason that i'm going through all this. Willow i'm so sorry to hear that you lost a baby it must be really awful to feel so hurt and empty. I hope that your pain isnt too much to bare. i know that you don't have your mum with you right now,but i hope you have lots of dear eople around to give you hugs and kisses. Try and have a great weekend and do whatever it takes to get your mind off things.

xx Pauline