17 months on and I've had enough. I've been in metformin because no one wanted to use clomid and had surgery and been poked and prodded with so many needles and had 2 scans a month for 6 months. One bfp lost at 9 weeks.

This Wednesday I had my o scan and it was too early (40 day cycles for me) and again today to say I already o'd and as yet another needle was inserted I was screaming on the inside - I've had enough.

I'm tired of the pointless trips to the hospital and tired of dtd when I don't feel like it and dh isn't enjoying it either. I'm tired of the anxiety each month brings and the ibs each ovulation brings and the wasted money in poas tests.

I was going to demand clomid next month but I think I left it too late..... Because I want to stop obsessing over a baby!!!! My heart can't but my head wants to.

Sorry for the vent - just feeling a bit down about it at the moment - Xmas was hard with my friend falling pg the same time as me telling me how she is feeling kicks (I had a mc) and I keep trying to be happy for her but on the inside I'm crying - not out of jealousy but because it's a constant reminder that's where I should be now too.
And my cousins baby at Xmas - dd and I fought over holding him

I'm just tired of it all


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