You are definitely not "siIly" - I totally understand what you mean about feeling ripped off - that is the best way to describe an early return to work. One way I tried to make it easier to return was to have nice lunches with friends while at work and quiet coffees without having to look after DS1 - and I probably hit the shops a bit too much at lunch time LOL b ut all of these things were a bit of a treat for me having to return early.

Good luck with your return to work.