Pls help. Dont know what to do

[Kitty33]

Hi guys,
I have been depressed and suffering bad anxiety for weeks now and its all coming back to the fact that I am 19 weeks preg with a 10 months old baby (who is teething like no tomorrow) and I am working full time.
I am yelling at Jacob to shut up when he cries in the middle of the night cause I have to get up at 5:30am to go to work.... I am in tears most of the time... Like right now
I am so dam scared on how I am going to cope with 2 kids 16 months apart with no family around.. I have one great friend but she is going to leave back to SA soon again.....
I just think it might be time I throw in the towel at work......... I just feel like its being kind of weak or something..... I am worried about jerry when he gets the whole bread winning responsibility on him.... he keeps telling me "yeah I will be stressed" and in almost the same breath he tells me that "you can do it" (working that is).. (i think he is just trying to be supportive but i guess thats where the "i cant give up" thing is maybe coming from)

I asked my work for part time 3 months ago and they said no at the time.... just recently they have put on 3 part time staff and I am sooo peeed about that (again)
They are trying to stuff me around with the possibility of paid maternity leave... one minute its yes, then its oh maybe no....... we were taken over by a very large investement co.. (link) who have different leave policies as to the company thatI signed my contract with.... so they are screwing with me there.....

SO SORRY for the ramble but I just feel like somethings gotta give and the way I am going its going to be me snapping and ending up in a mess on the floor again.....

What do I do.... do I just swallow my pride and throw it in or do I just grit my teeth and keep going for the next 3 months???????

Please help I just dont know what to do....... I do but I dont... IYKWIM
Your thoughts would be appreciated..... I just feel really isolated right now..... AGAIN

thanks
xoxoxooox