Pls help. Dont know what to do

[Kitty33]

Hi guys,
I have been depressed and suffering bad anxiety for weeks now and its all coming back to the fact that I am 19 weeks preg with a 10 months old baby (who is teething like no tomorrow) and I am working full time.
I am yelling at Jacob to shut up when he cries in the middle of the night cause I have to get up at 5:30am to go to work.... I am in tears most of the time... Like right now
I am so dam scared on how I am going to cope with 2 kids 16 months apart with no family around.. I have one great friend but she is going to leave back to SA soon again.....
I just think it might be time I throw in the towel at work......... I just feel like its being kind of weak or something..... I am worried about jerry when he gets the whole bread winning responsibility on him.... he keeps telling me "yeah I will be stressed" and in almost the same breath he tells me that "you can do it" (working that is).. (i think he is just trying to be supportive but i guess thats where the "i cant give up" thing is maybe coming from)

I asked my work for part time 3 months ago and they said no at the time.... just recently they have put on 3 part time staff and I am sooo peeed about that (again)
They are trying to stuff me around with the possibility of paid maternity leave... one minute its yes, then its oh maybe no....... we were taken over by a very large investement co.. (link) who have different leave policies as to the company thatI signed my contract with.... so they are screwing with me there.....

SO SORRY for the ramble but I just feel like somethings gotta give and the way I am going its going to be me snapping and ending up in a mess on the floor again.....

What do I do.... do I just swallow my pride and throw it in or do I just grit my teeth and keep going for the next 3 months???????

Please help I just dont know what to do....... I do but I dont... IYKWIM
Your thoughts would be appreciated..... I just feel really isolated right now..... AGAIN

thanks
xoxoxooox

[Alan]

Hi Kitty
Awww hun you sound like you are doing it really hard at the moment. It may be time for you to give up working or at least just work part time. You could tell your boss thats its either part time work or you will leave. Money isn't everything. If you can manage on 1 wage for a while I think that would be the way to go.

[Mum0809]

Hi Kitty
Sorry to hear you are not doing well. I agree with Alan. Money isn't everything. You may be able to get assistance off centrelink depending on how much Jerry makes. I know there is no way I could work at the moment, I don't know how women do it. I would rather be happy and broke then rich and sad and stressed. I hope you work out what to do and feel better soon. Sending you lots of hugs. :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

[C~Q]

I agree with everyone Kitty. There is nothing worse then being tired and stressed and pregnant with another child there. Too much! Have you looked into what you could get from Clink if you left work? You really need to take it easy and enjoy your pregnancy and your other bub withouthaving to worry about the stress of work.

Hope you feel better soon

[Tiff+2]

Kitty you poor thing.
You have to do what is best for you, which is the best thing for your family! When your more relaxed and content, your family will be too!. Finances can be a hard thing to juggle, but give centre link a call and see if they can help you.
You must see leaving work as keeping you and your family happy and healthy, not see it as 'being weak'. It a tuff decision, which makes you strong for standing up for what is best!

Take care of yourself and I hope you start feeling bettre REALLY soon!

[nelly]

Kitty

I may be wrong but if a business has to accommodate a pg woman's request and the fact that they have just put on 2 pt people may well be discrimination. Is there a union you can call (not that I am a union fan but they do serve their purpose in this situation) or the Human Rights & Equal Opportunity Commission 1300656419 or website that you can call and talk to them.

I applaud your grit and determination but I think you need to put yourself first and take time out. I also think you need to go and talk to someone like your GP if you have a good relationship and they may be able to give you some coping mechanisms.

You are doing a great job!

[Kitty33]

BIG HUGS!!! Thank you so much for listening to my ramble.... I said to hubby that all I want now is to be a good mum and wife..... I have tried to hang on to hard to this "career" bizzo and its time (well and truly overdue) to let go!
I will finish up on the 19th Oct!! 4 days before Jacobs 1st bday!!! OMG where has time gone!!!!!
Thank you for your support and I know its a fairly trivial matter but I had been bottleing it up for so long I was just bursting with anxiety..... I now feel the smile returning to my heart knowing that I will be able to be a good mum to my babies and start being a real wife Thats something I have looked forward to for ages aswell!
I know i have said it but THANK YOU.... your support and kind words have really meant the world
xxoxooxoxoxoxoxoox