Well actually I would like to think it will be good and fun and I am really looking forward to my Mat leave and my new baby, but my work situation make it seem so hard sometimes.

I work for a small company (7 staff) as the office manager / pa. Until last month I was the only admin person here, and have been since company inception. All the systems and things were set up by me, run by me and overseen by me... I have worked with my boss for years, and he and I have a great relationship... but... he (and the company) rely on me for so much that I cant imagine how I am going to be able to have any time off at all.

We have discussed the fact that I would like to be off work for six months (min) with at least one full month off (no work, no work related calls etc) with me then starting to do a tiny bit of work from home, working back up to getting into the office a few hrs a week toward the end of the 6 months, then back 4 days a week.

But... after having had a week of annual leave last week I get back to find the office in a mess, things out of stock, work not done, mail not opened etc....

I just cant see how me not being here is gong to work. I am now thinking of how I can train up my new admin person to better run the office, I thought we were going well, but aparantly not... My boss said to me... i am pleased you are back... nothing happens without you here.... UGH... not what I need or expected to hear.

I guess what I need to do is start listing in great detail everything that needs to be done, when, and how, and spend April and May working through it all with everyone.

My worst thing is not being able to let go, and knowing that I can do it faster and in a way I like, so not always sharing when I know better. You might say I am a control freak, and I need to remember that I need to let go.

Anyway, not sure if anyone can help with this, but I think getting this out might have helped me work through it a bit.

How do you make your boss not reliant on you? yet still feel like you are valuable and integral to the company.?