Thanks ladies - it means a lot to have other people understand

I keep telling myself it's just temporary and other people are worse off and cope with things. My cousin was paralysed at the age of 21 and later became a gold-medal winning paraolympian, so I feel I should take inspiration from him and just get on with things. But somdays the pain and fatigue and frustration of it can get on top of me. I even had a dream last night that I was in pain and woke up to agony in my hips.

I think I'm sort of judging myself - that I should just get through this somehow. I feel like I'm doing all I can to try to manage it - I'm throwing osteopathy, physiotherapy and acupuncture at it as well as doing clinical pilates and am considering hydrotherapy.....maybe I've been expecting a miracle cure and am just realising that this won't get better and will proably only get worse until birth. Just cross my fingers that goes well and it doesn't end up worse.

Marydean - that's so surprising that you coped better with cancer treatment than with SPD, but I understand what you mean about others' not understanding. Happily I am well supported by DH and my Mum. I'm going to the GP on Monday and will ask for a temporary disable sticker then.