I had my NT Scan yesterday - firstly i didnt really expect to see a little person in there, but there it was!!! Chilling out with its arm behind its head, little legs crossed. Didnt want to move much, until i called out "WRIGGLE!!" and it did a little bumpy flow thing. We were so elated!

For the first time this whole pregnancy i thought everything was ok! for about half an hour....

Then they called us back in for the Genectics Counsellor to tell us - the results weren't very good. For my age, the risk for dwons shoudl be no more than 1 in 865. My results came back at 208.

This i did not expect at all. Not at all.

They gave us the options of do nothing, CVS or amnio.

After a walk, and lots of tears, i gave in and said we would come back for the amnio. I mean, everything inside me is telling me that they are WRONG. And realistically, thats a .5% chance that there is something wrong. Probability wise, these are damn good odds and i dont want to do further tests. But my partner does, and we are in this togeter, so i say we will do it.

Just as we are about to leave the docs says he wants to speak to us. In a very gentle way, he tells me the worst thing for them to see is to let someone walk out of there so upset. Its better to put yor mind at ease. After a long discussion, and after he tells us that he does surgery at such a level of fetal open heart surgery, I trust him and feel comfortable. If anyone is in sydney i highly recommend Sydney Ultrasound for women in they city.

We go and have the CVS.

My tummy still hurts now, apparently cos i was so tense. We opted to pay the extra money and to have the results roughly within 24 hours, so hopefully this will be back by 4:30 today.

I took today off work, i work in complaints and i just know that someone would have called me woth some absolute petty crap and i would have gone off at them. Not to mention i cant stop crying.

Oh dear, what a ramble. Sorry to anyone who is reading. Was just nice to get it out.

Oh and on top of this - we told DF's parents on SUnday bout the bub, oh they were so lovely to our face. Then yesterday his mother calls to tell him off for not using rubbers! (amongst other things) He is a 31 year old man for F%^$# sake! Needless to day i dont want anything to do with them anymore