Hi Beckoes!
it's great that you have decided to take action on the feelings that you are experiencing. This is the first hurdle that for many takes a long time to get to.

It took me almost 9 months before I admitted to my MACH nurse that i have Post Natal Depression (PND). Since then, it has been a weight lifted off my shoulders and there is a great deal of support out there.

I can highly recommend a group called PANDA (post and ante-natal depression association). They have a great service that is organised by people that have suffered post and antenatal depression and they also have a great phone counselling service and can put you in touch with local support networks. I cannot recommend them highly enough. If you cannot access PANDA where you live, beyond blue is also fantastic and again can give you ideas on where to go for help. No one should have to live with the 'cloud' that is Post or Ante natal depression.

big hugs to you! and good on you for trying to do something about it!

I hope this helps!

Clare