It's so hard to take in all at once like that, you poor love.

As you say, you now know your illness and when you're having a bad day, so you can discuss this with your doctors first and find out if you need to up mediction on a bad day or if they can give you something else... it's so important to discuss this first as there's loads of things that change in the body while pregnant and it's great you can recognise what's your illness and therefore what's not while you're pregnant.

It's perfectly normal to be scared, even without your diagnosis, so don't feel alone. BB has a fantastic pregnancy after multiple loss/late loss area so you'll have LOADS of support from women who have suffered too so you won't feel so alone.

I've been suffering since about 15-16 too; only now we're looking at a diagnosis (which may not even be this). So I can recognise the bad days and the good, but still don't have any treatment. It's so frustrating when your body acts like this, but sort of nice to know you're not alone with it IYKWIM.

I'll be looking forward to hearing how you're getting on and what decisions you make.