I think my remission has ended and my Rhuematoid arthritis is back.
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I am disheartened and I know I have to be careful not to fall back into a depressive state but it's so hard. Life at the moment is busy so that is keeping me going. I just don't want to stop or slow down. I have begun getting nightmares. Horrible ones. That are not helping by my DS who has just turned 2 not sleeping through again. Goodness knows what his problem is, he isn't sick just keeps waking for an hour or two around 12:30am & 3:30am. Actually last night it was 4am.

I can't even use my can opener again. It began with me starting to struggle with opening bottles, water, lemonade etc. Now tonight I would have made a Tuna casserole but couldn't open the stupid can. I have always struggled to a point to open jars and my DS copies with the noises I make trying to open a can, lol. Very cute but in a way sad. Anyway, packet pastas are my friend now, .

I don't know why I am posting mostly just to winge. I hope we fall preggers soon as that was my only natural relief last time. I just don't want to go on meds while we are ttc'ing. I know which ones they would put me on too and I am against prednisolone totally. I refuse to take it unless it's for an asthma attack as that is a short course.

So sorry to be such a downer and a sook, but arthritis is undescribeable unless you actually suffer from it. I was fine 3 wks ago, just don't know what I have done differently for it to re-appear. Could be the stupid weather changes.

I think I need a hug! (said in a donkey from shrek voice)
I hope I am in a better frame of mind tomorrow. I have a huge day of working and then an 80th b'day party that I have to pretend I am happy and in no pain. Ahhhh joy - not!

I understand if people don't reply but thanks for letting me vent my frustrations here anyway, it's helped.