what makes me think like that also is whenever I dream about my mother I am always furious and frustrated at all because she ignores me the whole time in my dream, but IRL she is the complete opposite, I am really close to her and the last thing she would do in the world is ignore me and it would kill her to know that thats how she is in my dreams. which makes me think maybe its a part of me that i'm using her to represent for me.