I just wanted to share an experience I had with my mum before she died. She had leukemia but she was all good having her blood transfusions and chemo, she ended up having a massive blood clot in her lungs. I went to see her on my lunch break and she was just being wheeled back in from some sort of test and was crying saying that the two men were pushing on her chest hurt her. That evening I went back and as soon as I walked in her room she had a phone in her hand ready to ring me and dad. She sent me back home to pick up dad because she wanted to talk to us. Her words were the hardest thing to hear, I didn't want to hear what she was saying but she knew she was going to die. I was 22 and she was telling dad to look after me and that she would know if he wasn't doing the right thing. She told me she hopes I marry and have a family and to not wait too long before having children. She told me not to be sad, that she wasn't scared of dying, she just didn't want to leave me. Two hours later she was in intensive care and ressusitated twice, the third time they couldn't bring her back. When the doctor came out to tell me that mum had passed away he explained what had happened in intensive care and that if she had survived she would have ended up needing 24hr care which she had told me she never wanted to end up like a vegetable needing care she would rather pass away. I'm so glad she was able to talk to me and dad and say what she needed to say, even though it was so hard to hear.

Regards,
Dianne