Thanks guys!!

I do feel that my black pets have always been my protectors.. even my little pussy cat- lol he was staunch!! and yes i have ALWAYS been attracted to black animals and other pets i have had that werent black just never seemed as important to me or have the same connection with me.

In saying that i have never made contact with my totem animal- just always beleived that it is there and never really knew what or who he was until recentlyt when i iasked the tarot reader and even then i am only going by what she has said and then relating it back to my experiences with my pets- so maybe as i am still in the baby step stage of exploring my spiritual side- my panther has felt that this is the best way to make contact with me- through my pets that is.

Like with everything to do with the spiritual world- i have alot of thoughts and ideas that i have never really known how to put into practice- its something i have alway thought about exploring- but have never really bitten the bullet and tried with the kind of dedication i beleive it needs to really work. It is something i would like to explore more fully- but i feel i need guidence to do it- and to quote punkin from another thread i have read- when the student is ready- the teacher will come.. i am kind of waiting and biding my time for the right person to come along to help me on my path.

Thanks for all your insights ladies!