Well that was D&C no. 2 today & the 2nd time I have had to say goodbye to a much wanted bubba.
It is onwards & upwards from here though & I am choosing to believe that I will never again have to go through the ordeal of the last few days. Call me naive but I am choosing to be optimistic & filling my space with positive energy. I know the reality for many women is very different & believe me after the stories of loss I have read on here in the last few days & the tears I have shed for those women - my heart was close to breaking.
How this came to be....On Monday at my 12 wk NT scan for bubba no 3 I got the horrid news that the pg was not viable. This exact same thing had happened to me in 2006 so I could not believe the nightmare was happening all over again. So many of you have been there I know & that is a great comfort to me.
Typing this is the first step to my healing. Physically I am feeling great after my d&c, emotionally - that will be a work in progress & having this site is such an awesome help.
Thanks for listening....
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