Thanks girls. I just wanted some validation and all I got was an arrogant ***** telling me my baby never existed.
I feel differently now. Keep changing my mind about whether or not I was pregnant. Rationally I know I was on some level, but it's hard to believe when someone who is supposed to be educated about this stuff tells you it never happened. One minute I'm grieving my loss, the next I feel like an idiot and like I should be fine cause "it never happened".

What a head ****.

I really feel like getting smashed and allowing myself to forget for a while, but it would be a slippery slope. I get addicted to things very easily. I can't allow myself to do that.