Thanks Coco. Don't feel bad saying you hope I had a sticky bean in there. I wish I did too. Well I sort of did although the sonographer said ectopic pregnancies very rarely have any sign of life (ie HB) which was reassuring at the time. Obviously there was no option but to remove the affected tube with the growing gestational sac but emotionally it would have being harder if I knew it was alive and had to be taken.
I am a complete mess. I know I shouldn't be and I do have two children already. Seems like a year of my life has being consumed with ttc and still we are no closer to having another baby. I am not sure where we go from here. I see the Gyno in a few weeks and he should tell me when I can start ttc again and hopefully give me a time line of how long to expect and if nothing when to look at other options like IVF. I think I will start saving now. Hopefully it wont be neccessary but if I don't and another year goes by Ill be pennyless and still not pregnant. What worries me now is the damage I have inside. Its good to know why all of a sudden we have had trouble though and between DH motility and my one tubey and mess abdo I have no idea what chance of a natural pregnancy are. I am hopig being prepared for all avenues will mean we will concieve a sticky bean with no trouble but I have a few crosses against my name now.