I would say the same as tootie. I just didn't go out. The thought of leaving the house was so completely overwhelming and when I did go out of the house,everything was a reminder of our loss. I just couldn't go to work, coudln't get out of bed, didn't want to eat etc etc. It does make it harder that you have been through this another time. It makes it so much more unfair, that it could happen again, that you feel so angry at the universe for making you suffer, like one isn't enough.

I have told quite a few friends about what has been happening for us. I figured that they should know as they would know something was wrong anyway. I also knew that I needed their support, and if they didn't know they couldn't be there for me. It is nothing to be ashamed of, and people have been really supportive, and whilst I haven't told many people all the details, I think it helps when people around you know what you are going through. It is amazing what a difference it makes to know that you have people around you that love you, even if they can't take the pain away, the do remind you that life is worthing living.

You are going through the acute phase of grieving, so let yourself grieve because you will need to. It will get easier each day, and just because you might become a blubbering mess, and all the sadness can get triggered by the tiny things, it is OK for you to be that in the space if that is where you need to be. It doesn't mean that you will always feel that way. You will get through this, as painful as it is right now. Give yourself permission to be where you need to be, and ask you friends for support if you need it. Huge hugs matey. My tears are still fresh now as I know the hurt and that I cried a river of tears when I was where you are at now.

Take care and stay in touch if you are able. Let us know if you are just reading but not up to posting as we will keep posting to you.