Thanks BG- your response really does help. Maybe because it helps me just share and vent and hear that I am OK...and that I just need to manage my feelings as best I can as I move forward. Just the fact you understand helps! I am seeing a psychologist at the moment and talking things through, so step at a time I'll get there. And yes I know, new stim cycle and I am trying my best to be in a positive head space and to stay as calm as I can....thanks again. I am watching your progress! I remember that I had my first scan with my second pregnancy on the same day (or maybe a day apart) as you had your first scan with this pregnancy....and you've done so well and come all this way since then It's an exciting time and I am so happy you have achieved this