Thanks Bokkie for checking on me, it has been hard to go through this but I know I will be ok...like you said, I just need a little bit more time...on the other hand, I am so glad that you are doing well, I hope your NT scan went ok since last time we chatted...love to hear from you because knowing you are growing bigger belly gives me hope....

Panda, thanks for your thoughtful post, I think I have left the worst past behind and start to look forward to the future...have planned a two weeks holiday to get away and plan to pumper myself and get fit...so I am really looking forward to that...you are right, sometimes thinking too much can do your head in, I am trying to focus on planning the near future to start TTC soon...