just thought i would post in here, as it looks like i am in the middle of miscarrying my precious baby, sorry i have copy and pasted the following from my pregnancy announcement thread. mods can you please lock my pregnancy announcement thread thank you.
well i just want to once again thank everybody in the bb community for their happiness and concern for me.
it looks like my life has taken another turn for the worst. i have started bleeding today, i am absolutely guttered, i am 5wks and 1 day. i have rung the counsellor i spoke to yesterday and i am to go in to the royal womans hospital tommorrow morning for an ultrasound. but in my heart i know that this baby is leaving me, he will not become part of our lives but instead he has chosen to be with his big sister in heaven. i am absolutely guttered, my dh doesn't know i am bleeding yet, i will tell him tonight. i keep thinking maybe it is just a break through bleed but it seems to be to heavy for that. i guess is it any wonder the amount of stress i have been in the last few days certainly could not have helped.
i feel so empty, so useless and so like i just don't belong anywhere. where to from here, i guess it is a sign for me to stop wanting another child so badly and to continue on with this ****ty life i am living, oh i don't know anymore what to do i am so over it. feels like i am on the outside looking at someone else's life. what in the world have i done to deserve the pain and heartache i have had to endure over the last 10 years. my first ever pregnancy ended at 11wks (blighted ovum) 2nd pregnancy resulted in a beautiful daughter, whom was cruelly taken away at the age of 3 as a result of a brain tumour, i am thankful for my georgous 2 children who are with me my son (7) and my daughter 2 1/2) and now this my probably in all honesty my last chance at having another child - gone, ripped away from me.
it hurts like hell.
once again thank you to all the bb community, over the last few days you have given me strength to fight this with my dh, and also to get support over my grief and also to just offer the kind and wonderful words of encouragement.
Oh Michelle, you poor thing, my heart goes out to you , your journey has been a very hard one so far but don't lose hope yet. I have heard of women who have heavy bleeding at the beginning of pg, that go on and deliver perfect little babies.
Please try to stay positive until the ultrasound, I know it is difficult when you heart is breaking and you fear the worst, I have had several miscarriages myself, the last two being just when I was starting to feel 'safe', if that is at all possible after even one mc.
Remember BB is here to support you with whatever you need, come back when you can, hopefully with good news
Take care of you, and be gentle on yourself tomorrow
Alex
xxx
Michelle, huni I am so sorry to hear that you are bleeding. Not sure if you saw my thread but I too started bleeding at around the same time as you. I went and had my HCG level's tested, and had them repeated a few days later. I also went and had a scan asap. My level's did rise, and even though my initial scan left us abit concerned for bub, ie no foetal pole or heartbeat a repeat scan showed a little blob growing nicely, complete with a heartbeat.
You have had so much stress lately that anything is possible. I am sending you all the sticky vibes I can muster sweety. Please keep us informed.
As I posted in your other thread I am so sorry this is happening to you. I hope it's not the case and your bleeding is just cause by stress or something like that. I will be thinking about you
I am so sorry that you are going through this. My thoughts are with you and I hope that things change - thinking of you a lot. I can't imagine what you are feeling... I'm pray it does turn out positive. I dont know what else to say.
Michelle sweety, I am sending you all the love and hugs I can on this day and Im so very sorry that you are going through this. I hope you can find comfort in your children and your darlings in heaven to get through this. :hugs:
I am so sorry to hear you are feeling this way, but please don't give up and have a little more faith (i know that is hard after what you and your family have been through).
Michelle, sending you lots of hugs and love. It's so not fair what you're going through. I hope with all my heart that you find the strength you need in the support that you have here and around you. Thinking of you
I know what your going through now is bad but don't think the worst, as with both my DD & DS I spotted early on in the preg and for DS I spotted at 22 weeks. I even spotted the week before I had an ultra sound of my angel and seen a healthy heart beat that was beating 133 a min.
So please please wait till your u/s . Lay on your bed put your hand on your tummy and tell that little poppet that it's not allowed to go anywhere it's going to get its pic taken.
I hope it only stress or that its your body used to have af around this time of the month so it bleeds a bit (thats one of the explanations i was given).
Lots of hugs and I'll be thinking about you and please keep thinking positive.
looks like my baby didn't want to stay
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I am so sorry for the losses of your precious little ones.
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