HPL...Glad to hear you are so well supported by your husband and little girl. I cannot imagine what it must be like to have to be in the world working when you are in such a personal process, and at times an isolating process.
OP... are you feeling better yet??? I hope the illness was swift and moved on.
Keike... hugs to you too!
AFM... I naturally miscarried yesterday. Very similar to how I birth. It was quite quick and intense (my longest birth has been two hours from first contraction to baby) I guess I am not sure what I was expecting, but it really felt like I was in labour and I just met it with the same focus I have met my other labours with. Afterwards I felt in my body like I had given birth, that same feeling in my uterus and my body, it really was a surreal experience, as I knew the feeling, but there was no baby, no midwives, just the feelings that came with it. So hard to articulate.
Today I have been pretty tired and tomorrow I am off to early pregnancy clinic at the hospital to check everything has passed and get an anti d shot. Tonight I felt a whole range of emotions toward my DH, so odd and I feel terrible that I am feeling so mixed up, I can't really grasp all the hormones and what is being asked of me, so hopefully tomorrow with the nurses I will experience some clarity.
I am blessed to work from home so I have cancelled my clients and am back in the cocoon, I was just starting to peer my head out but nope, now I am back in. The good thing is I can now say I have had a miscarriage but that no mans land of I am in the middle of one was tough, i still don't know how to bring it up?? do i just blurt it out?? hmmmmm I guess time will tell... I have just experienced how much people don't talk about this in real life why is that? anyway, off to try and sleep before the day at the hospital...
i just thought i would check in here and see how everyone is doing, the last few weeks have been difficult for many here im sure and i wanted to share a with you all
Just thought I would come in and say hello again as sadly we miscarried on Box Day..... Just had my follow appt at hospital to check my blood work to make sure it is going down - fingers crossed it is.... bleeding has pretty much stopped (yay) ..
Thank you for your kind words in my other tread xoxo
DG - how are you hun? I just read you posts and I am glad you spoke to someone.... I totally get it, NYE we were in Canberra so the kids could see the fireworks, and I was a mess, reflecting on the year that was and being so hurt .... will it ever be the same again??? Even today seeing pregnant woman makes me cry and ache ...
DH wants to try again but honestly I don't know.... I feel spent to be truthful ....
Anyways hope life is being kind to you all....
Last edited by chepie; January 4th, 2012 at 10:13 AM.
Chepie - Im sorry you are hurting so badly. I found NYE to be pretty tough too, reflecting on the year that was...and what should/could have been and having that empty, hopeless feeling that comes from that. But I did feel a sense of release and calm on Jan 1. It feels like a fresh start, so that has helped me. Dont worry about TTC for now, just focus on picking yourself back up. I know how hard it is to do that again and again, but it will start getting better. Just take one day at a time.
Ladybird - how are you going now?
Minnie - Thanks for the hugs. I hope Christmas and the NY were ok for you too.
with you all
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