Hi Star,
im so sorry for your loss.What alot you have had to deal with.
i have had 2 m/c myself so i know where you are coming from.If you ever need someone to talk just give us a yell.Just to help you in anyway at all.
i hope you have some close friends and family around?As for what you have been through would be so hard to go through alone.
Best Wishes to you and never give up Hope.
Big Hugs from Hopeful.