Star, I am so sorry to hear of what you have been through lately, it's just not fair.
I hate to see new people join this thread and thats not due to not wanting to meet new people but as I know that they has experienced pain like no other. I know how invaluable the girls on here have been for me over the past 3 months and I hope we can all now help you out in any ways possible.
You just have to remember to do what is right for you though, if you need to cry, yell, vent whatever feel free to do it and not just on here, in life too.
I hope you have plenty of friends and family around for you at the moment, to support both you and your partner.

Again, I am so deeply sorry to hear all that you have been through, there is nothing though that anyone can say to fix things, time will have to do the work unfortunately. Pleas know though that we are all here for you when you need us.

Love and hugs