Today was the day 1 year ago that I lost my baby. I was only 8.5 weeks pregnant but in the 3.5 weeks I knew I was pregnant I had planned my babies whole future. I feel guilty and selfish and ungrateful posting this as I have a 2 week old baby asleep in the room next to me who wouldn't be here if my Angel had lived. I miss him/her and I hate not knowing what he/she was like. Only my twin sister remembered this date, I hate how everyone else forgot or chose not to acknowledge it as they probably think I should be happy beause I have a baby now. I know I am incredibly blessed with my baby as she was a miracle (doctors advised us to terminate as thought she had a fatal chromosome problem, but she has been born healthy and perfect) but it doesnt stop me missing my angel baby.
Just needed to vent.
Erybery - Hope this helps a little. Since having Daniel 4 weeks ago now i too have thought a lot about the 2 angels i have lost. Wondering what they would have been and what they would have looked like. I feel totally blessed to have my little man with me now. Spoke to my Mum and Sister about this as they have both suffered losses too and they say they still think about their angels even though it has been over 20 years since. Please dont feel guilty about the feelings you have.
It's hard that people do forget, but they do. You know that you never ever will though, and I think that's important, I think that is something that will serve your angel well, forever.
I know how hard it is hun I miss all three of my angels every day. the saddest part is I seem to be the only one who misses the two "unknown" angels and even really acknowledges they existed.
Its nice that your sister did what a lovely person she is.
I feel the same hun. Noone remembered the anniversary of my loss, they expect that you are over it especially as it has been 2 years for me now. I feel that if I told my friends about it they would be surprised that I still even think about it. But we do think about our angels, even though we have now been blessed with beautiful, healthy babies we can't forget the ones that we lost. We will never forget them.
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I feel the same hun. Noone remembered the anniversary of my loss, they expect that you are over it especially as it has been 2 years for me now. I feel that if I told my friends about it they would be surprised that I still even think about it. But we do think about our angels, even though we have now been blessed with beautiful, healthy babies we can't forget the ones that we lost. We will never forget them.
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