ZeeBee I am very sorry for you loss.

Similarly my SIL has a due date of 3 weeks after when my baby would have been due. I'm not quite sure how to deal with it, it is terribly upsetting to think they will be having their 2nd child when mine is gone. So (sheepishly) I admit that I have had similar thoughts & feel horrible for thinking that way too.

But I won't beat myself up about it & you shouldn't either. Your grief is your own, so you do or feel whatever you need to to get through it & move forward when YOU feel ready. And remember that there are so many people in here that have experienced something similar & are willing to lend a sholdour or an ear (well actually I spose its our eyes that we lend?).