Sunshine - I left you a message in our other thread. I'm so so sorry for what you are going through - the pain you must be feeling right now must be so hard to bear but you are a very strong person to have gone through this already you will get through it even though it feels like you won't each day is different and give yourself all the time and care and love you can you did not fail your baby you did everything you could to bring them into the world it is cruel that you had to go through this but you are not alone sadly there are women here who understand and who will help you through let them hold you be kind to yourself cry and find comfort in the people near you who love you who would do anything to help stop the pain not everyone will understand out there but in here they will and will always be there with a comforting word or kindness or wisdom take care love Alice xx