the time of year where i completely breakdown and just after i start to get over that bam its xmas and i start all over again, anyway this isnt a feel sorry for me thread more of a give me some ideas thread.
My sons 8th birthday is in 3 days and although he only lived 3 hours we still celebrate every year (which i got told i was stupid for by FIL who you would think would be understanding his eldest passed away at 7 months old)

This year we are broke but i still want to do something, i was thinking a picnic lunch at home with a cake but its been raining a lot so wont be able to do a picnic.
Also i try to do something special with all my cakes but generally they turn out a disaster but i have fun trying so any ideas on what theme for my cake and ideas of how to "celebrate" the day - celebrates not the right word i know but cant think of a better one, i usually spend the whole day in hysterics but i dont want that anymore easier said than done i know but I know its not what Anthony would have wanted.