Oh Cailin - I am so sorry. It's a mega tough thing for anyone to have to go through. My thoughts are with you and your family. We are all here for you whenever you need us. I know what you mean about the numb feeling too, you never quite believe it could ever happen to you. Just know that we are here for you when you want to chat. I think everyone is different, but I found talking to people who had been through a m/c too to be invaluable. Massive hugs.