Oh honey, big hugs to you my friend . I have a big round box that I keep most of Josh's things in. I have a small picture album with all his photos, u/s images, and when I feel like I need him close by I have a look at it. I always end up shedding a tear, but it lets me feel really close to my darling ngel. I also have 2 pictures in the house of him and I look at him every day. The only thing I can't bear to look at, and I don't know if I will ever be able to do it, is to look at his u/s DVDs. I have 2 which are at the bottom of the box, but every time I look at them I just can't bring myself to watch him kicking and moving on the screen. I have seen a psychologist for almost 2 years and even she couldn't get me to have a look at them.
It does get easier hun, with time.