lady zaidie, im sure u werent a bad mother and ur just being too hard on urself. what happened if u dont mind me asking?

sally and fluer, thanks for ur concerns! james was born with the pnuemonia, he caught the infection after my waters broke and i wasnt given the anti-biotics needed. so right from the start he was sick. it was one of the hardest things iv ever had to do. but very worth it. he is 12 months old now and doing great! he is a little on the small side (but i dont mind, he is cute like that) and was given the all clear from all of specialists the day after his birthday!

fluer, how come DD2 was in SCN? i know how hard it is. my heart goes out to u.