Ok after three months of being in hospital with vasa previa & having had my gorgeous boy at 34 weeks he is coming home after three of being in special care. Great news right... I'm over the moon but I'm sooooo anxious & scared.

He is going to be on 2 breast feeds & 4 bottles(breast milk) as he is still getting warn out with the breast feeding as he is 2.2ks & feeding is hard work for him.
Ive been waiting for something to go wrong & it hasn't he is very healthy.

I don't know why I'm so scared & anxious. I should be enjoying every second after three years of Ttc, IVF & getting through the vasa unscathed. This will be our last baby due to the chance of another high risk pregnancy & the need for IVF again, I couldn't face it.

I feel silly, I need to snap out of this & cherish every second. I'm trying & it might be different once we get him home but I just feel frightened.