I hope that the Dr's have found a feeding regieme that is suiting Miss H and that you can start BF'ing again very soon, I understand how important that connection you gain through BF'ing really is, and how with a prem and in your case a very early premits significance is heightened.

I will still hold out hope for you that you are able to have her home for your birthday.
Sending lots of chubby vibes your little girls way
Take care and you have done such an amazing job for the last 108 days xxoo