I totally understand, I posted similar threads before TTC #2.

Brendan was born at 30+1 due to PPROM (waters broke at 28 weeks) and most of the info was given gave me a high chance of it happening again around the same time, if not earlier.

During my pregnancy we celebtrated Brendan's 2nd birthday and it really hit me hard, around the same time I was told he had a sensory issue. I ended up on med's due to depression and anxiety.

Tristan's pregnancy was fairly easy as far as the pregnancy goes until I hit 25+5 weeks.... I had this sudden feeling that something terrible was wrong... I started losing my plug and it was blood stained... I decided after 2 days of worrying myself sick (literally) to head up to my local hospital. I was 26 weeks exactly and they put me in an ambulance and straight off to Perth, I was threatening to go into labour with regular tightenings coming with back pains and some mild period like pains.

I then spent the next 8+2 weeks in pre-labour and threatening... Tristan arrived safely at 34+3 after going into spontaneous labour at 34+2.

I was sceptical of making it past 30, but to get to 34 I was rapted, he's so perfect and the experience is so totally different than a 30 weeker.

My advice is to be aware of your feelings and trust your instincts. You know you best, if something doesnt feel right get checked. You CAN do this, You CAN make it further

All the best