Jayne thank you for that image You have seen Greg so you would understand that those long fair chicken legs in a fairy skirt and him wearing a tiara is a total crack up!! But one I have no doubt he and his brothers would have ended up wearing at a girl party some time in the future

Thank you Mako

Well, in typical Caitlyn fashion it is raining. And I am happy. Considering. Almost exactly 5 years ago I gave birth to our beautiful sleeping daughter. I thought that was my hell but how wrong I was. This year I remember her birth without the one person who truly understands her loss (to us - not generally) and I am, in fact, quite numb. I don't think it is possible to hurt any more than I already do so today I have been able to smile in a weird way.

I have been able to remember with fondness her penchant for clouds and rain and floods around important dates. Remember the blessing she gave me - the blessing of you. I was given this group for love, support and healing after her death. Without her loss I would not have you. Without you I would not be surviving the loss of Greg. Out of darkness comes light and you are my light. I thank you every day for being my light and guiding me through this really, really dark time in my life journey

So today my firstborn is 5. Time truly does fly by.