Not quite lol I'm ok but still sore..Poor Sage was sooooo out of sorts when he came home. I explained to him yesterday that mummy was having an operation on her tummy and it would be sore so he'd have to be gentle. Well he wouldn't come anywhere near me when he was dropped off. I tried so hard to get him to come near me and I eventually showed him my tummy (or giggle button as he and DH call it) and he just said "aww sore" and went and sat on the floor and whinged and cried Poor boy was obviously traumatised by it and I told him I was ok and its nothing to worry about. He's now in bed asleep so will hopefully be ok when he wakes up.
Hi! It is so nice to see so many of you on FB!!!
I have a quick minute to post while the boys are sleeping. I just wanted to let you know that everything is going well and I am feeling great after my section. So far Brexton is a pretty easy baby. He does have his nights and days a bit mixed up so I haven't been getting much sleep yet. Grayson is having a hard time sharing his mom too. I have been trying very hard to spend as much time with him as possible but he gets very mad when I have to pick up Brexton. I know that it will get easier!
It hasn't really hit me yet that I have two healthy boys. I really never thought that I would be able to say that. Trying for a third has already crossed my mind. Dh thinks 2 is enough for us but the family doesn't feel complete. I'm not sure that it ever will without Parker ans Shelby.
mako, i'm glad that everything went well. I have been thinking of you lots.
Jayne, we looked for a name for months! It was really hard to find one that we both loved. We found Brexton in an Irish baby name book and we knew it was the one right away.
kelly, your little man is beautiful! How did your first week go?
OH Mako, I really hope he comes near you soon. Jess is EXACTLY like that as well. So mindful of somebody if you tell them they are hurt/injured, etc... My mum has a bad hip & although it doesn't bother her when the kids are sitting on her lap, she will only sit on the right side of her lap. It's really great that he can show compassion like that. You have raised yourself a very lovely little man - congratulations! I really hope the pain is subsiding today. When do you know any results or go for a post-op?
Love Jayne xx
PS _ Laney - so good to hear from you. Sounds like it's just normal 'growing pains' with your family - Grayson not happy to share his Mummy. It will pass - I'm sure of it. I'm so glad you are getting your mind around the fact that you have 2 healthy little men in your life. Shelby & Parker will always be a part of you, I understand how you are feeling.
Thanks Jayne..He's come around a little more after his nap this arv but I think it helped that DH was home from work when he woke. My DR came to see me in recovery yesterday which she has never done before and she said things were pretty bad and she had lots to get rid of but it all looks ok now apparently..So fingers crossed it helps to make a nice snuggly home for someone very soon.
I have my proper post op appointment on the 10th January so only 2 days after we get home from our holiday.
Layney Its sounds like you and Brexton are doing well. I'm sure Grayson will adapt very soon too..Must be tough on the little ones when a new little person joins the family Parker and Shelby will always be part of your family and will be watching over all of you
P.S I love your ticker pic...very cute
Oh Mako, I'm praying for you as well darl. It sounds like you very in pretty bad shape & that your OB has done a wonderful job. I'm glad she came to you in recovery to give you some feedback.
Jayne Look at your new avatar..smoking hot hot hot!!!!!
Thanks again for your support.
Well DH & I have had a bit of a chat this arv and it looks like we're planning a bit of a holiday in October next year to Tassie..So Lee I'm going to do my best to meet you IRL while we are there..We won't be bringing Sage with us but if we have a new bubba then they'll be coming along cos they'd only be a couple of months old at the most..So we have something else to plan and look forward to now too..I'm not sure if we'll hire a car and stay in motels or if we'll hire a motor home and travel in that..I guess it depends on if we have another bub by then or not as to what we do
Mako - Sounds like you & DH are having some really great moments and he really sounds as though he has realised how much you're hurting (physically & emotionally) with your angels. It's lovely that you guys are planning a holiday with just the 2 of you (possibly 3).
Lol, yes, I figured it was time to jazz myself up & Keike was the lady for the job! Hasn't she done an awesome job! Just a shame that I don't look like that IRL!!! I'm loving how pretty I look on my Avi though, I just can't stop staring at myself. Hahahah.
I have had a fantastic morning!!! Took the kids to Kids Starz Zumba today & they loved it & then had a play with all the other kids in the massive playground at the complex of where the class was held. It felt 'normal'! KWIM? The other mums were superly friendly & I just felt like I was beginning to belong. Also, I went to Zumba yesterday. It was hilarious! My dancing career begins & ends at 3am when I'm overly drunk in a club. Where you 'think' you are a star & that you have the voice, body & the moves, but sadly you do not. lol. But anyway, I shook my wild thing & had a great time. The other ladies, well I guess now they're my friends (hehehe), were so much fun & I just had a great time.
Anyway, so now I can use my oven in the apartment (I got brave) & we made nacho's for lunch & we are going to make cupcakes after the girls have had a rest. It's just all beginning to feel like 'home'.
I hope everybody is having a fab weekend.
KELLY _ Can't believe Campbell is already a week old
Jayne - Wow... love your new avi... definitely one hot mamma!!! Yeah, I know.. my last ever baby is now 10 days old... amazing! It's so great to hear that you're getting out and about and making friends!!! Well done... I knew it wouldn't take you long.. you're very 'likable'!!
Mako - It's so great to hear you sounding so positive and making some wonderful plans!! I hope you're starting to feel a bit better and praying that we have some more good news to celebrate soon. Thinnking of you.
Laney - Thanks for finding me on FB.. you're little man is just gorgeous too!! I hope all is still going well and I'm sure Grayson will come around. We're lucky that we haven't had that problem with Luke.. but he is that bit older and I think it's made a big difference!! Our first week has been amazing.. so much better than I ever anticipated. I didn't have the easiest time with Luke as a baby so was wondering how I'd go this time but Campbell is such a great baby and he's made it so much more enjoyable - iykwim!! He just feeds, poo's and sleeps!! It's great. I can't believe we haven't even had to get the dummy out... never thought that would happen! LOL. I think it helps that I'm a lot more relaxed this time and after all the drama's I had during the c-section, it's put a new perspective on things for me... plus the m/c and all that.. I guess I just appreciate it all so much more and knowing it's definitely our last bub also helps.. I want to savour every second because I know this time just how fast it really does go!!!
Well... although I'm EXTREMELY tired... I'm still loving having a newborn in the house!! He's just adorable and I couldn't be happier. He's feeding every 3 hours though, so it's rather exhausting and I have one VERY sore nipple!!! He's not attaching quite right and I know what needs to happen but just can't quite get it to work. I'm thinking of getting a lactation consultant out but I already know what they're going to say!! We'll see. It's not too bad atm.. I've been walking around with my boob hanging out.. it's a good look!! Especially because our house has windows EVERYWHERE and we look out over a playground!!! Oh well... that's life!!! LOL. DH is back at work tomorrow but Mum will be back tomorrow avo, so that will be nice. Otherwise not much to report.. the lack of sleep is going to be a killer.. I'm just getting through atm, so hope I can keep on top of it!!
Sorry to come in here and vent but Im a little hormonal and very crazy right now and I need to do it or I'll bust.
So Im sure some of you saw my most recent FB status. About the m/c and thinking how I would have been 15wks by now and feeling really sad that basically there is nothing now.
Just now a friend put up a status of "How can you lose something that was never actually there?". I dont know what its referring to but I got a gut feeling that it might have been my status (paranoid much?). Which makes me so effing mad. I feel like asking "Is this about my status? Because I can assure you that those of us who live in the real world would vouch that you most definitely can lose something that people think wasnt ever actually "there" or whatever thats supposed to effing mean".....................but I wont because I cant be bothered with the ensuing biatchfight.
God I feel like a horrible person but Im getting so sick of the constant status updates from friends about their pregnancies. I have a few who are due around the time I should have been too which just drives the knife in more. The particular friend who is part of the above vent goes on and on about having a little girl after two boys. I feel like deleting her from my friends list but we share friends and again, cant be assed dealing with the fallout. Im turning into a catty, poisonous sad sack. I dont know why this particular miscarriage has me so...............beaten down but it does. I had a panic attack in the middle of the night last night because I had a dream about being pregnant and it just hit me that by now I would have been showing, I would be feeling kicks, would have been weeks away from finding out the gender. I nearly passed out I hyperventilated that badly. I feel immense anger at what seems like everyone else having everything they want while my life is falling apart at the seems. Dh doesnt seem to really care or understand, it just doesnt feature on his radar I guess. Everytime my MIL rings she bring it up how I need to move on, that she doesnt understand why people who have miscarriages or stillbirths insist on holding onto it forever blah blah freakin blah. Ive had a few people bring the baby up not realising I actually lost the baby weeks ago and then feel all horrible that they put their foot in it (totally not their fault). I think the fact that there wont be any chance of another pregnancy til 2012 makes it worse. Every other miscarriage I was pregnant pretty much straight afterward with a successful pregnancy so I sort of skimmed past it if that makes sense.
Sorry to be a Debbie Downer, I know life could be so so much worse than it is. I dont know whats wrong with me anymore.
On a bright note, happy 10 days Campbell Kelly, he is absolutely beautiful I can totally understand why you have that loved up tone in your posts! Your ticker pic is gorgeous, bet seeing them together just melts your heart.
Oh Freya... massive hugs hun... it's such a difficult time and you have every right to be feeling the way you're feeling right now. I'm so glad you've got us to 'vent' to and get it out.. that's what we're here for, so never, ever appologise for it!! I wish there was something I could say that would help make you feel a bit better right now... I know how hard it is and I hope my posts haven't been making you feel even worse.. I always hit the post reply button and hope that I haven't been insensitive to anyone... but also want to share some 'good' news and give everyone hope - iykwim!!
Anyway just wanted to say that I'm thinking of you!
Sending you some more Freya. It really is a tough gig we're on isn't it and it certainly doesn't help when people make insensitive comments. I honestly think people who have never suffered the loss of a baby whether it be only a few days/weeks or a couple of months into the pregnancy they just don't get it. I know I have a lot of people in my life who just don't don't have any idea about how upsetting and painful both physically and emotionally a loss is.
I would never ever wish a loss on anyone but sometimes I wish they'd be a little more compassionate and understanding.
Anyway feel free to PM me anytime or even FB me a message cos you certainly aren't alone in this journey
Jayne its great to hear how well you're settling in in China. I'm pleased you've made some friends too..How are the girls doing?
Kelly Its good to hear you guys are doing so well. Campbell sounds like he's being a good little guy for you apart from the attatchment issue. I hope you get that sorted soon though
Well I'm back at work nice and early in the morning. I'm not really looking forward to it but anyway not much I can do about that. I'm filling in for one of the girls tomorrow and Tuesday morning so have a 5 day week with a couple of split shifts thrown in for good measure. Just what I need right now not!! I'm still getting some pain in my shoulders so the carbon dioxide is still trying to escape and I have a very tender tummy to go along with it..I'm just hoping the kids tomorrow keep their feet to themselves
Hmmm well the status has disappeared this morning. Sus as.
Kelly - no no! I love hearing from you and all about Campbell. He is just beautiful and I am more than overjoyed that he is finally here. Its horrible thinking youll never have another one and such a huge relief when you do and they are safe in your arms. So go right ahead and keep on posting, I love it!
Mako - are you allowed to swim with stitches!? I hope you have a good day; and feet are kept to themselves
Hi beautifuls... sorry I've not been in here much, too freaking tired to be honest. But had to post and say FREYA - EFF the lot of them I say... honestly so many people simply do not understand, it's so not worth your energy being directed at ignorant folk. I only say this because I've been very guilty of it in the past - but I do understand the utter frustration and anger..... we understand babe. You should be 15 weeks pregnant, and enjoying the excitement rise.... it ain't rocket science to think a woman may grieve for her lost baby - your friend must be pretty dumb! But sadly the world is full of them. I called my first DHs parents the other day, and it really irked me that they never mention their son, rarely talk to his children, and (because my radar is finely tuned) they actually sounded fairly bored talking to me..... hung up from that phone call and rolled my eyes in disgust..... but what can you do. Their loss, shallow people. Hang in there babe - I'm hoping you might get another crack at it before 2012? Hugs xoxo (oh the biatch in me would probably post something cryptic as my status to get the dumb ones thinking ;-) ) xo
Mako - how are you doing sweets, on the mend? And I can't wait for you to come to Tassie! It will be beautiful to meet you!
Kelly - post away babe, us girls in here can handle it all - the good, the bad, the ugly and the sad..... Campbell is divine, I could pretty much eat him! You sound so in love xoxo
Michelle - how are you doing babe? Any news to report?
Deb - I know you've been MIA, how are you sweetness?
Laney - how are you doing babe, your DH went back to work? How's the first day been? xo
Jayne - I'm not talking to you because I would love to be the weight of my FIRST wedding day - but seriously, more power to you babe, you must be very strong! Glad to hear you are finding some like-minded girls and settling in xo
Hi Willow, Bek, Janie, Spring, and anyone my sleep-deprived brain has missed.
WELL.... I have 1 more week solo (and I type this, I'm painfully aware that our beautifuls Michelle and Deb, are indefinately solo) till DH gets home. With 4 kids it's been fairly FULL ON.... I'm exhausted. If I knew it was indefinate, I would definately get more support in place for myself to have a break - but I haven't bothered, knowing it was short term. I'll be getting some serious body work booked in for next week though. DH has lost 13 kgs in his 7 weeks in France - I know fancy going to France of all places, to diet lol.. but he needed the space (and his mother's support and cooking) to do it. I'm quite proud of him - he keeps promising me that for all my solo efforts, I will be rewarded with a new, energised and kinder DH.... I've booked us into a "blended family workshop' the night after he gets back, so we will be more actively trying to get into a better and happier space together.
Just a little WOO HOO from me - my little man, Flynn, turns 1 on 1st December, first day of summer - and what a warm ray of sunshine he is... just gorgeous - but even cuter is watching him and Remy interact - just priceless. He follows her everywhere, and she says in her best aussie voice 'come in ere baby' and he follows.... I love it!
Flynn 1 already! Somehow I still imagined him as that gorgeous little newbie in your ticker pic lol
Sadly no there wont be any opportunity to TTC between now and Jan 2012. Dh is on holidays for the next 6 weeks then he has 6wks away doing various things, then April/Easter home then he deploys for 6-8mths in May. Meanwhile we are due for posting so will likely shift out of Sydney and I'll be leaving/moving while he is away to get Jett settled ready for kindergarten in Feb 2012 (eek!). Unless he doesnt deploy (which is looking highly unlikely) then maybe we'd start in July next year. I think some time to live a little will do me some good, plus I want to work some and get my swim teacher quals done. Part of me considers being insane and risking being heavily pregnant/giving birth while he is away but he absolutely hates the idea of deliberately chancing it, so thats a no go. And I dont want to be heavily pregnant and moving interstate either. Add to that the enormous issues Im having with Ripley and I just dont think its wise.
Plus I have already told him no questions asked we are going to Europe first school holidays Jett gets because he gipped me of a honeymoon lol
Poor boy was obviously traumatised by it and I told him I was ok and its nothing to worry about. He's now in bed asleep so will hopefully be ok when he wakes up.
Parker and Shelby will always be part of your family and will be watching over all of you 
Kelly, he is absolutely beautiful I can totally understand why you have that loved up tone in your posts! Your ticker pic is gorgeous, bet seeing them together just melts your heart.
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