Michelle - dont be sorry honey - this is whats hapenning in your world right now and we want you to use this thread as a release, its a parenting and friendship thread and I speak for all of us when I say its ok to dump in here.. The fact you had the strength to take them there is amazing - but you know Greg would want you to take the kids to his park and now you have done it once the next time wont be so bad I know you miss him, and its ok to ache for him - I bet it hurts like hell, but soon this day will pass and tomorrow will bring fresh hope, hope in the smiles of your two earth side angels and thier baby brother George xx
Janie - little D is a real trooper - must get it from his mum! Glad he is home and well xx
MICHELLE _ Honestly, I'm sure I speak for everybody here, but we want to be able to listen to IT ALL! That is what we are here for, we are hear to listen, to cry with you, to try to understand what you are going through & be of assistance to you in whichever way we can. We are here for the long haul, not just for the coming few weeks, but in months, years & decades to come. We are here to cheer you through George's arrival, Oscar starting school, Lily becoming a big sister, the works. So don't feel as though you are saying too much or that you need to journal anything to 'spare' us of anything. I know you have stack of IRL friends & of course family to help you through, but I think of us all in here as a 'special family'. I think we are a wonderful group of loving women who would bend over backwards to help each other out. So please, don't hold back, we're here for you. I'm here for you.
KELLY _ Sorry you're still so ill, but it's a really good sign though. I just hope it eases soon for you. YES! I would not let you visit Perth & not see me! You tell me what days are best for you & we can figure something out. I just work Monday & Wednesdays.
I hope you all have a reflective Anzac Day tomorrow.
Michelle - Please come in here and tell us how it is for you. My heart breaks for you and I wish I could come over and give you a real hug.
Jayne - Thanks for asking how we are. Eva's sleep is still the same but for now it is easier for me to just with the flow. I tried not offering boob and other settling methods but she ends up so upset and she just won't go down. I did 3 nights in a row of not giving her boob to re-settle and she was up for 3 hours each night. So I threw my arms up in the air and went back to feeding her to sleep. I must say though that she did do 2 times 5 hour stretches last week. I am glad you had an awesome holiday.
Willow - Been thinking about you over the weekend.
Hi sorry I haven't been around for a few days. We went away camping for the weekend and omg it was freezing lol. Sage had a great time playing and getting dirty as kids do
Michelle PLEASE come in here and vent or "talk" about what you are going through. Each and every one of us is here to support you as you travel through each day. I'd like to come and visit you soon too so I can give you some of these IRL. Also good on you for taking that massive step of taking the kids to the park. I'm sure they loved going and will remember all the times their Daddy took them there and will now get to create some new memories of going with Mummy.
I also agree with everything Jayne has said
Janie What a little trooper baby D is. I'm pleased his op went well and he's now home again with you
Willow How was your weekend? Thanks for the email too
As for us well DH is pushing for no more babies and I'm struggling with that idea in a huge way. I feel like I'm being punished for all my m/c's and it sucks I told him to wait until I see my Ob in a couple of weeks as I just can't give up my dream. I'd always wanted 4 kids but DH only ever wanted 2 so I agreed on that but I just feel a bit ripped off if he continues pushing for us to stop now. If there is something else out there that is simple and will help us have another healthy bub then I want to try that just once. I NEED to have that chance. As for the bleeding well I've put that down as af. It hung around for 8 days so I wasn't too impressed about it but I can't change it. So I had a 26 day cycle after d&c. Totally different to my previous 35 day cycles but who knows what my silly body is up to now.
Hi to everyone. I'll try to catch up on all your posts soon.
Mako - I totally understand how it feels to have your DH say 'no more'. I totally understand the 'ripped off' feeling. DH said the same thing did after L was born. And I absolutely know it's not the same because I already had 2 healthy children, but it still hurt. It became like a constant ache in my gut. I remember going out and more and more I would start to look at other mums with lots of kids or families together and I just didn't feel like our family was complete. Two didn't seem like 'my' family. I understand where he is coming from after everything you have both been through, but perhaps it's time to put your foot down and let him know exactly how you feel and that there is more than just him involved in this decision? If things hadn't worked out the way they did for us with our little 'Boo' coming along, I think we would of needed some sort of counselling to try and reach a place together that we were both happy with. I'm sure he's just scared and tired of it all and doesn't want to go through it all again and most importantly, he doesn't want to see you have your heart broken again. It's a tough situation. I'm here any time you need to talk.
My weekend was fine. DD had a sleep over with my mum at my Nan's place (I'm getting good with this sleepover business huh?? LOL) and then I went down on Sunday and met them at the hospital and spent some time with my Nan. She was having a good day My mum is struggling with the idea of her not coming home and after seeing her on the weekend, I sort of get that now. She seems like she would be OK at home But that may just be because she's in the hospital and is getting the care she needs and her pain is managed etc. I don't know, it's hard. Her memory is not the best at the moment. One day she knows she is not coming home, the next she is asking when she'll be going home She forgot my mum's name the other day and got my boys names mixed up too
Deb - I've noticed you haven't been around and am hoping everything is OK with you and the children
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%$@%& - got the print out from my last U/S today and now I know why I need the scan next week. Uterine artery resistance is at the end of the chart left side and way, way off the chart on the right side So now, on top of everything, we get to stress about growth and progress for a little bit longer. Can the Universe back off for a little while I can't take much more of this
I know you miss him, and its ok to ache for him - I bet it hurts like hell, but soon this day will pass and tomorrow will bring fresh hope, hope in the smiles of your two earth side angels and thier baby brother George xx
I told him to wait until I see my Ob in a couple of weeks as I just can't give up my dream. I'd always wanted 4 kids but DH only ever wanted 2 so I agreed on that but I just feel a bit ripped off if he continues pushing for us to stop now. If there is something else out there that is simple and will help us have another healthy bub then I want to try that just once. I NEED to have that chance. As for the bleeding well I've put that down as af. It hung around for 8 days so I wasn't too impressed about it but I can't change it. So I had a 26 day cycle after d&c. Totally different to my previous 35 day cycles but who knows what my silly body is up to now.
My mum is struggling with the idea of her not coming home and after seeing her on the weekend, I sort of get that now. She seems like she would be OK at home 
But that may just be because she's in the hospital and is getting the care she needs and her pain is managed etc. I don't know, it's hard. Her memory is not the best at the moment. One day she knows she is not coming home, the next she is asking when she'll be going home 
She forgot my mum's name the other day and got my boys names mixed up too 
So now, on top of everything, we get to stress about growth and progress for a little bit longer. Can the Universe back off for a little while 
I can't take much more of this 
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