Spring - hugs sweetheart - I think I know pretty well how you are feeling and what you are saying - kind of giving yourself permission to keep the "good bits" of Harry, and letting go some of the intense grief - I think you are making the right choice babe. Current DH told me after we lost Luc "the best revenge is to live well".... it's pefect for you at the moment hon, and good advice for all of us. One day at a time on the next part of your journey, Harry lives on in your heart, he truly does, and always will.

Michelle - oh babe, you are still in such a raw state. And loosing your husband, partner, mate, best friend - it's complete devastation and requires a full re-build.... these things will take years, I hate to say. But you know that. Finding the pearls in amongst the crud is paramount to keeping you sane and on track. Getting time out is paramount too. I know it's horrible and I know it's hard. I wish to god you were not having to experience this kind of pain and grief, it's so all consuming..... you know I'm always here when you need to talk my darling xoxo

Hi Jayne and Bek, Janie, Kelly, BW, Mako.... bit tired myself atm, in desparate need of a break - but that won't be on the cards for a little while yet, DH back the end of November. Just not feeling very chatty right now due to not having much fuel left in the tank.... but could not ignore the posts of such beautiful women.... I wish I lived closer to both of you.

Much love to all, and hi Deb if you're out there, how r u doing?

Lee xoxoxo