I just want a break & some time to myself!
I've gone from the full time working Mama to the Stay Home Mama & I'm not coping.
I'm breast feeding our 10 week old so I haven't been away from her for more than 2 hours since she was born. I carried her because my partner was told no more pregnancies because the risk to the baby from pre term labor was too great after 2 premmies already ( we are two mums in a same sex relationship ). I really struggled with being pregnant cause it was never what I wanted to do & I'm now really struggling with being the full time mum to DS 5, DS 3 & DD 10 weeks!
I have no patience for the endless 5 year old questions, the 3 year old stubbornness & the newborn broken sleep. If I have to make one more messy craft thing, I may cry.
I feel like the worst mum in the world when I snap at the boys cause I just want a break from them! My partner was definitely a much better stay at home mum but she's now working crazy hours to put food on the table plus she's missing out on time with the kids so it feels really selfish that I'm complaining about too much time with them!
Just needed a vent cause I'm having a bad couple of days, I'm sure it will all look much better when I can send the boys to daycare on Wednesday!!!!
Long term - looking forward to going back to work & sharing the daycare with the missus.