I just needed to come in here and debrief. I am feeling so overwhelmed right now. I've just spent the last 1.5 hours trying to get DS to sleep. Yes, I still rock/pat/whatever my 2.5 year old to sleep for his naps, because if I don't he doesn't have one and the afternoon is hideous. He was sleep walking last night and then ended up being wide awake from 2.30 to 5.00am so has had 8 hours of broken sleep, if that. He's been feral all morning and tired, but for the life of me I couldn't get him to sleep. And it was the same yesterday. Both times I've ended up yelling at him in frustration which has made him cry and left me feeling awful. And today, I've just ended up crying right along with him. I've spent the last hour crying and rocking him and wondering how on earth I am ever go manage when the baby arrives. There is no way I'm going to be able to spend an hour, or probably even half an hour getting him to sleep. But then if I don't, his behaviour will go to crap, and then how will I cope? It just seems like such a hopeless situation, I feel like I'm completely set up for failure. I no longer have my mum, all DH's family is overseas and there really isn't going to be anybody to help me during the day.

And then on top of the nap issues, I'm terrified of how bubs arrival is going to impact on DS's life. I've never had a night away from him, and I'm going to spend four in hospital when I have the baby. I'm the only one who he lets put him to sleep at night, so who knows how that is going to go. He's such a mummy's boy and he is going to have to share me. Right now I feel like I am about to ruin his perfect little life by having another child. I just feel awful and so overwhelmed by everything. I have no idea how I am go manage.

Thanks for listening. No need to reply.