I'm feeling like such a horrible mum atm. I know that i'm not and I know that I am doing the best with what I have. BUt seriously... all I do at the moment is snap at my child. The constant mum, mummy, mum mum mum mum, the constant arguing and bickering between my children, the constant attitude. I am so far over it it's not funny. I could quite easily today walk out that door and not come back (Until they are past this horrible stage anyway). Im conscious of what I am doing and when I feel myself getting to that point, I try to walk away, but it's constant. They follow me and just keep going. I Have been trying really hard to be the nice mum that I usually am but i'm finding it rally hard.
I feel like it's affecting so many other parts of my life... including with my husband.
I just need a break.. not just over night, but an extended break. I don't have any family nearby and my most of my friends are childless so aren't keen on having my kids for a couple of days. Hopefully they will go to mums for a wk in july but atm it feels like so far away.

I had a cry in the car on the way home from the shops because i'm so exhausted and I can't keep listening to them. I cried because I feel bad for snapping at them as much as I have been. And most of all, I feel bad for not wanting to be around them atm.
It makes me sad to think I feel this way about my kids. I'm struggling and I know it will get better but right now, I hate it.