Feeling horrible

[BrightSparkles]

I'm feeling like such a horrible mum atm. I know that i'm not and I know that I am doing the best with what I have. BUt seriously... all I do at the moment is snap at my child. The constant mum, mummy, mum mum mum mum, the constant arguing and bickering between my children, the constant attitude. I am so far over it it's not funny. I could quite easily today walk out that door and not come back (Until they are past this horrible stage anyway). Im conscious of what I am doing and when I feel myself getting to that point, I try to walk away, but it's constant. They follow me and just keep going. I Have been trying really hard to be the nice mum that I usually am but i'm finding it rally hard.
I feel like it's affecting so many other parts of my life... including with my husband.
I just need a break.. not just over night, but an extended break. I don't have any family nearby and my most of my friends are childless so aren't keen on having my kids for a couple of days. Hopefully they will go to mums for a wk in july but atm it feels like so far away.

I had a cry in the car on the way home from the shops because i'm so exhausted and I can't keep listening to them. I cried because I feel bad for snapping at them as much as I have been. And most of all, I feel bad for not wanting to be around them atm.
It makes me sad to think I feel this way about my kids. I'm struggling and I know it will get better but right now, I hate it.

[Arimeh]

I have lots of those days too. Especially when I've told the kids to wait and they keep on asking me for the same thing, over and over!! Its like "wait" in this house means "no, please keep asking" Drives me insane!!!

I've been snapping at mine too - and I feel bad when I get angry. My rule at the moment is to not smack - no matter what.

My next rule will be to not yell. That one isn't so easy to stop unfortunately LOL

[LizLemon]

I hear ya!

I feel like parenting is at the moment an absolute conflict between their needs and mine - not just that I have to give up a bit to be a good mum but that our needs are in no way compatible. It is exhausting.

I don't have any suggestions for you other than ABC2 and laying in the couch with a blanket which is what gets me through. But you are not alone!

[Amity]

I hear you too. DS1 had a few massive tantrums today. It's exhausting on a constant basis.

We had a big cry together on the couch today for over an hour. I'm tired.

[Arcadia]

I find crying with my kids therapeutic for us all. It breaks the tension and give us all some release.

I've been sick recently and have been so snappy and crabby. I have no family help either and i feel like I need to have a few days to get better. It's so hard. I've been enforcing cubby time and stories under blankets and tv just to get me through. It's so hard, especially when you know you're a great mummy just having a tough time.

Hang in there. We're all here listening.

[bubno.3]

Seperate them ...i have a 5 yr old and a 3 yr old and a 13yr old and i alway have to seperate them all the time .....to keep me sane ....but it is constant

For instance today the 5 yr (nearly 5 end of june) wakes at 5 30am and refuses to sleep any longer so i need move him from his bed to couch to stop him waking the younger one ..but i cant 'tune out' or 'ignore' the constant stupid noises or his self talking and it drives me batty (and im a single mum)

Now im sitting in bed typing on BB with my 3 yr old next to me and he was playing nicely but now decided to start grizzling ....
I had the 5 yr old come in before just because he could but i told him to go and play elsewhere....
and then the 13 yr old got up and i made him get me another cuppa tea...

I think what im trying to say is deligate and demand time for you and demand peace ... just because they are kids doesnt mean they have to be in your back pocket every minute of everyday....and /or be loud or have to be on the go for 24/7.

Or another thing outsource if you can thru the week use daycare or fdc so you at least have a few hours for you or to work or to catch up on sleep ....

BUT i hear you as all i do on days is say 'stop whinging ' or 'NO' or leave me alone .....

Mine bicker well the 5 and 13 do and it drives me up the wall....but im lucky in the sense as the ds13 heads to football and his dad picks him up and drops him home....