I didn't return to work as early as you did, I returned for 4 days per week when DD was about 10 months old & I didn't enjoy it. I worked approx. 40 mins from home. I negotiated with my employer that I would start early, finish early. From memory I worked from 6.30am until 2.30/3.00 and that way I got to spend some quality time with my DD before dinner, bath, bed routine kicked in. Is this something your employer would consider?? (I know you said late starts....) I found that about 4 months into me returning to work I couldn't handle being away from DD that much & went to part-time (5 days per fortnight). ((hugs)) a truly tough decision to make.