Hun, not knowing where you live, but have you tried Karitane or Tresillian (are you in Australia?) They are not something I'd normally recommend, but you sound very desperate. Karitane has a 24 hour help hotline, you can talk to a nurse who will help you out. Contrary to popular belief , they can provide a lot of solutions and suggestions that don't include crying it out. And if nothing else, they are a friendly voice at the end of the phone. One of my good friends swears by them. I'll PM you the number.