Don't feel bad, if anything happened to either of our dogs i would ball my eyes out.

My dad was NOT a pet person, got drunk and bought home 2 kittens from a friends, 1 got run over and he was 'very' upset, the other lasted a few yrs and was around before they had more kids (we didn't live with them), they had to get her put down and he couldn't go because "it's not my thing" so my stepmum took her, came home bawling only to find dad in the shed with tears in his eyes.