Thank you everyone. I am in shock I think. This has affected me more then I ever imagined. I have worked with animals for 16 years and seen so many pass away but Squeak was my baby and it happened so quickly and in all honesty it was pretty traumatic.

Marydean, I kept telling her it was okay to go, I really hope your right and she knew exactly how much I loved her.

Lilima, I remember your post and I hate that now I have a huge understanding of what you were/are feeling.

Rouge, I am so sorry about your cat. Nothing but hugs because I know your going to need them.

I know everything is still so raw and things will get better soon, but right now I am shattered.