Awww Hun that's devastating.. I had to put my horse down after 15 years.. I know how hard it is. Hugs and kisses and know I will be thinking of you xox
Oh no! I am so sorry for you and for Handsome. I lost one of mine about 18 months ago and I cried for days. He knew you loved him - horses can always tell and now he will be galloping around in ponyheaven with all the other wondeful horses who have left us.
xxx
Yeah, I really feel for DP. There is no real way to prepare for losing your first horse, even when you've only known him for 2 weeks. He's pretty sad about it. I'm sad, too, and I hate waking up to my second day of no Handsome He was just so beautiful, a perfect find. I told DP last night (as much as he's probably not ready to hear it yet) that at least Handsome has set the standard - if a horse we try doesn't feel completely honest we move on and keep looking.
I have remembered, too, that when he came home and I told him the news he was holding out a bottle of Neatsfoot oil he had just picked up - for oiling his first bridle. I hate that his happiness and preparing to ride his horse was just ripped out from under him. He doesn't let himself get excited about much and he was uncharacteristically chuffed with himself this last two weeks.
DS has taken it pretty well. He doesn't quite understand how a broken leg leads to death.
Can't help picturing our magnificent creature all decked out in new rugs, head ****ed to greet us and get a feed. He had such a light walk when on the lead rope.
We feel so deflated. A little bit inflated with the steers we now have on our farm, though, and more to come this week
I'm so sorry.
This poem always makes me cry, but when my first horse died, it really helped me. I still miss him & know that even though he left a big hole in my heart - he left it there to be filled by other horses.
Sorry if it makes you cry, but I hope you appreciate the thought. Xx
"Somewhere, somewhere ... in time's own space,
there must be some sweet, pastured place ...
...where creeks sing on ... and tall trees grow,
Some paradise where horses go.
For by the love that guides my pen,
I know great horses live again."
~ Stanley Harrison
Entreat, that's a perfect poem, thanks Crying cos our new farm sounds like just this place - yesterday the creek was high and gurgling amongst the tall gums, plenty of green grass.
Thanks Bath, Rory and everyone who has posted
Joeve - I think I cried for 6 months every day when I lost my first horse. When I realised I hadn't cried in a couple of days I knew I was ready to start looking again and my current horse just about landed on my lap, just by 'putting it out there'.
DP is struggling with what I found out 10 years go...somehow it's different from losing a dog. Still as painful, just there's some other kind of sentiment attached to the noble horse, I guess, that pulls on a very different set of heart strings. KWIM?
The lady who owns the place spoke to DP a bit when he went back to give her money for the knackery - I knew she would and she said there's a horse worth $100k on the property who is insured but could go in exactly the same way tomorrow. It's just a horse thing. Apparently, my case for a $15k horse is now shot to pieces
Just one of those horrible things. I'm glad DS is absorbing this reality now, and able to see that it's ok to be sad, and also to know that it's part of the life we've all wanted and are now getting.
Handsome was also the first horse DD ever saw me ride, so I'm glad about that, cos the lady who introduced us to him said we made each other look good He was gonna be magic to ride.
It was nice to go to my riding club rally, briefly, yesterday and commisserate with my fellow horsey people. Gotta get back on my 'little' horse - was hoping for tomorrow but DS has this chest infection and it won't be fair to shuffle him off to creche just to ride my horse!
That poem is beautiful! It makes me cry now and it's been a while since my boy died. We burried my boy at our farm so I can still visit him... Infact I have seen him more than once galloping around the paddock in the moonlight since he passed.
Makes me appreciate my boys I have now that little bit more.
Hugs again babe.
I have "Murphy Forever" tattood in Chinese down my spine to remember my boy.
Xox
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